Amazed.

God knows what you need. He knows the right time to speak. He knows how long to wait. He knows what to speak. He knows how to speak to you. He knows you.
He knows your desires, your hopes, your dreams.
He sees through you.
Trust in the Lord always.
What He calls you to do, He will enable you to bear.
If you've come to the end of yourself, good.
If you are desperate, good.
If you are crying out for help, good.
If you don't think you can make it, good.
God will reveal what He needs to reveal at the perfect time.
He knows what you can handle.
He knows what you can bear.
He will not give you more than you can take.
However, He will push you to your limits to learn to trust and rely on Him and to lean not on your own understanding.
God is a good God.
Everything, every season we encounter is for our good.
Maybe sometimes He tries to bring us back from our complicated additions to our faith to kneeling in amazement at the cross.